Even if...

A lot of people asked me... 

If I am really sure you like her and if you're together with her. 

If I am very sure that there was a third party.

No, I am not 100% sure. 

How can I be 100% sure if it you do not want to speak to me in person? How can I be 100% sure if your story is full of flaws?

But I am 100% sure... 

That she does like you.

That you did contact her on the day you mentioned break up.

That you brought her out on a date 4 days after our break up to have a candle light dinner.

That you lied about not having anyone in mind after the break up.

That you lied about purposely planning the date with her just to spite me.

They also asked me if I'll take you back if one day you come up to me and ask me to take you back.

Honestly, I will not. I will not take back a man like you.

Even if you did not cheat.

Even if there wasn't a third party.

Even if you didn't lie.

Even if she didn't like you.

I will still not take you back. 

Because the thing that hurt me the most was you giving up on us, on our dreams, our future, our plans, and all those other things that we painstakingly built together for the last four years.

Just because you are scared. Just because you became a selfish coward.

You took the easy way out and decided to give up on us.

To give up on me when I needed you the most... at my weakest moment. You decided that it became too much for you to bear, so you decided to leave.

How can I ever take back a man like you?

A man who ditched me in times of need and when I am sick.
How can I ever rely and depend on a man like you who quits because in your eyes, I became a burden to you? 

A man who sees my weakest point in my life as a liability, and not a moment whereby you should stand by and support me and help me to recover.

I cannot. I cannot take back a man like you.