한달。一个月

Note: This post was written more than a month ago, but I had problems publishing it. So here it is now. hehehe...



今天是我认识 Ann 满一个月！很开心能较到这位朋友。

Every new journey will always be guided by someone and I believe the person who really helped me get to know more people and to socialise within the B2uties circle is definitely Ann. :)

I used I miss out on a lot of little things. Not posting them online because I was too lazy... As I grow older, I realised that those were the little things that mattered to me and I chose to not write them down. So now, I will not repeat the same mistake anymore. I'll write down whatever I feel like writing...

And oh! Tomorrow is Dujunie's 24th birthday (Korean age)! Here's to hoping that every path he takes will be nothing but the best and that he will soar to greater heights in the coming years!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOON-GOON!

People Who Discriminate Know Not How To Love

I came across a note I wrote two years ago on an FB page I once had. It's about my younger brother, who has Aspergers Syndrome.

I think sharing it here with people would be good, since not many people actually know of this syndrome.

Recently, my little brother was terminated from his internship because his bosses think he is not good enough.

Yes. My family and I all know that my brother is not really able to live up to their expectations and their requirements.
We also know that my brother has a very short attention span, loves to talk to himself and in layman's term, brag.

But we also know that if he had a choice to choose who he wants to become, he would not have chosen to be a kid with Asperger Syndrome.

My brother has a mild form of autism, meaning he can function better than most autistic kids, but still with considerable amount of learning problems. He is a slow learner and requires a lot of patience from the people around him. Teaching him to do something the proper way may very well require months, sometimes even years of constant and continuous reminding and teaching.

Since young, he has been shunned and alienated, by friends and peers, sometimes even by extended family members. Honestly, we don't even know who his friends are. They are just like strangers in his life.

He doesn't have a best friend. Never in his entire 19 years of life, have we seen a "friend" visited him. Neither has anyone calledl and asked him to hang out before. He doesn't get to have birthday parties because nobody wants to attend. Nobody ever once called him just to talk about daily stuffs, girls and gossips.
Every normal teen who has no friends would probably have succumbed to peer pressure and anxiety on why they are not accepted by their peers...

But my brother, he bears no grudges against these people who have "ill-treated" him, now or in the past. He never questioned why people avoid him. He never asked why friends have never visited nor asked him out. He never once asked for anything more than what he already has in life, even though it is not much compared to what his schoolmates and peers have. To him, the world is beautiful and everyone is good.

I just wish sometimes people will be able to look at the world through his eyes and see how beautiful his heart is. How innocent and how pure and sincere this boy is to everyone. If there's someone I know who wouldn't lie about his feelings, it has to be my brother.

It doesn't matter if society looks at him in a different light. Because like everyone else in my family, I'd be more than willing to have someone like him as my little brother for a million lifetimes to come... 

Because through him, I learnt how to love, and to forgive and forget.

Note: My brother is 21 this year, and still, he gets shunned and discriminated from time to time. But he's still the gem that he has always been. 

Comeback Album

It's my first time as a B2uty anticipating Beast's 5th Mini Album, Midnight Sun.

I think I am a bit mad... No... Wait... I MUST BE REALLY MAD because I bought their album, knowing that I am extremely poor this month compared to other months. Who do I blame but myself?

Although I have to admit that the first releases song from the album, Midnight really played a huge role in deciding my purchase. Midnight sounded reaaaaaaally good and it gave me the faith that the album will not disappoint! I didn't even get CNBLUE's Japanese album this time around! No thanks (or maybe thanks) to FNC for trolling a fangirl like me with the releases of a single and a full length album within the same month.

I can't wait for Midnight Sun to officially be released tonight!

Beast fighting!!! :)

비밀。秘密

I want to buy The Secret... For I really believe that I need so much more positivity in my life. It feels tough when you have reached a dead end...

I tried to stay positive, love myself and love the people around me more... But in the end, no matter how much I try, their negativity still breaks me.

I want to be happy.

한 달 뷰티... One month old B2uty

Yay!! Today, 26 June 2012 marks my very first month as a Beast fan!!

It has been a great month. Spazzing with so many other B2uties around the world... People like Ann, Jolene, Pony, Wen Chin, Yun Hui... These girls have been nothing but super great friends.

Who cares about the age gap? They can be 10 years younger than me for all I care but I love them all the same as there is such a bond that I feel with them. :)

I just wish I had done a post of myself as a one month old Boice. But it doesn't really matter... Because I am still a hardcore Boice!! I have a stable #popcorngrp I spazz anything under the sun with and I love them all Unnies who has taken such great care of me... Who can ask for better fandom Unnies and chingus like them?

I love being a Boice & I love knowing that I am a Yoonique B2uty.

CNBLUE fighting!!
BEAST fighting!!

맛있는 음식 。好吃的美食。

Suddenly have this urge to post all the pictures of the food I like and had taken pictures of.

우리사랑은 "두주니"

The second guy that makes my heart flutter, after 용화... 비스트 윤두준

사랑스런 강아지 ... 可爱的狗狗 ❤

They said that a dog is a man's best friend. If that's the truth, then I am super lucky because I have not one, but two loveable doggies.

I grew up fearing dogs and cats. Anything furry with claws and paws scares me. The ONLY dog I loved when I was a kid was my aunty's Terrier-Poodle cross, Minnie.

Minnie wasn't active and noisy like most dogs. She seldom barked, came when we called her, and was always satisfied to just sit beside us. She was a loveable being nobody could say no to. After Minnie died, I never liked any other dog again until I found my own.

On August 30 2010, I adopted a stray Terrier and named her Berlin Gretl. Getting to know her took time and patience. I almost gave up on her a few times but I am glad now that I didn't. Taking care of another dog is a tedious task. Waking up an hour in the morning to get her ready before I go to work can be a pain sometimes. But each day when I get home and see the "smile" on her face, I feel that she is worth every thing she has put me through.

In March 2011, we "accidentally" kept a Toy Poodle. It's a long story as to how we ended up keeping him. I'm still in the process of training him to behave. Up till now, he has some serious temper problems (can't blame the dog since the owner doesn't have time to train him). He doesn't stay with me, so I can only train him 3 days a week when I am over at my bf's place. On other days when I am not there, he is treated like a king and gets my bf's family members' attention the whole time!

Both of my dogs are pretty much my life. I feel their love for me all the time... Even if they don't speak human, I understand their feelings and their emotions just like how they have always understood mine.

Who would have thought that such a day would come when I would have two loyal companions?

Gowl. 猫头鹰婆婆。

The epic moment of today was when my sis sent me a message with the word "Gowl" in it.

I can't believe how fast time flies and it has been more than two years since I last heard this word. Hehehe. Although I used to associate every bad thing I can think of with the word "Gowl", it somehow became something I can laugh at heartily now.

Gowl Gowl Gowl.

Just what is "Gowl"?

Gowl is a "name" I made for someone I did not really like way back in 2009. It was one of those names you give people you dislike and use it to make yourself feel better because somehow, calling other people by meanie names made you feel a million times stronger. As time passed by, Gowl somehow ceased to exist in my life... Until my sister's message today.

It made me laugh.
It made me feel happy.
It made me realise that this, is one of the many things only my sis and I understand and will probably forever stay that way.

What does Gowl mean?

Gowl's Grandmother Owl.

Who is Gowl?

That, is a secret between my sister and I.

Second Love. 第二个爱人。

I've always thought that my heart is only able to contain one member of CNBLUE. All along, it has always been that cheeky 22 going on 23 choding leader, Jung Yonghwa.

Never have I imagined myself to be smitten by another member of the group. I've always loved the others equally, but it seems that one of three has managed to capture my attention, and well, probably my heart too! lol.

The first time I saw CNBLUE in person, he was the only one who had me blown away. His tall and lanky frame with his ever charismatic smile was just toooooooooooo much to handle. I didn't think the feeling would last, but I find myself slowly liking him more and more.

He slowly found his way into my phone, sometimes replacing Yonghwa as my wallpaper. I started listening to his songs on iTunes and watching his videos on YouTube.

Minhyuk-ah, just what have you done to this Noona? Lolol

Half of My Wish Came True. 半实现的梦想。

Was chatting with a friend, when he suddenly told me about my old, long forgotten blog.

I opened the link he gave me and the first post I saw was about my then wish.

It's funny how it all started in September after I received the first CNBLUE merchandise I bought.

Ever since then, I didn't look back.

Maybe it does pay to be a loyal fan for once. LOL. I have never liked any band as much as this, and have never even bought any original CDs with my own hard-earned money. (Note: OWN hard-earned money. I used to buy CDs with allowances. Not earned salary.)

And maybe this was why God has been very kind to me. Because that small wish made in September came true, partially.

No, they didn't come to Malaysia, but they went to somewhere near enough for me to have a fairly spontaneous trip just to watch them sing live.

Of course, not everything was smooth. One week before the supposed concert date (Nov 2011), I received news that the concert would be postponed until further notice. Yes, I was heartbroken and lost. But no, I didn't give up on them. Most fans refunded their Bangkok tickets and bought new tickets for CNBLUE's concert in Jakarta. I just waited.

I think perseverance always pay? In the end, acquaintances who exchanged the Bangkok tickets for the Indonesian concert were told that the Indonesian concert had been cancelled as there was a breach of contract. I pity those who didn't get to watch the boys live, but there was also a part of me that felt relieved that I hung on and didn't sway or change my mind.

Then came another bout of obstacle. I was told that the concert in Bangkok will be held on February 25th. DANG! At that moment, I really felt lost. I had booked and planned a trip to Taipei with Nic (the boyfie) at the end of February. I was stuck, really.

I had to choose to burn either one of my trips. Bangkok CNBLUE concert, or Taipei trip with Nic.

But again, I am blessed for Nic told me to just go for the concert. "Taipei can wait", he said.

And so I did. I burnt a fairly big hole in the pocket and forgo the Taipei trip in exchange for a chance to see my favourite band performed live!

It was my first and probably the best live performance I've been to. I might be bias here, but who wouldn't be if your favourite band is standing right in front of you, singing and dancing away together with you?

I would go again. For their concert. I definitely would.

And I am thankful that the wish I made 6 months ago came true, partially. Life is never perfect, but it's up to us to make it perfect in our small little ways. I made mine perfect by flying to meet them halfway in-between... No regrets!

Cho-eum. 初次。

First post in a long while.

Not sure what to say.

A little bit about myself.

Twenty-five. Has a pair of tiny slit eyes (some say I do eye smiles). Very much in love with Korean band CNBLUE & YongSeo Couple. A huge fan of Korean wave. I like Seoul a lot! Love the food, the atmosphere, the environment, the culture and the people. Wish to visit Salzburg one day. Love to travel and explore new places with my best travel "kaki", my sister Janice.

Let's just hope this will last! And oh! Please be warned...

There will be LOADS of K-pop related stuffs in here starting from now. :D