자신. Building Confidence.

For a while, at least 1 week plus, I allowed myself to feel miserable.

I allowed myself to feel sad, ugly and unwanted on the inside.
I allowed myself to blame my looks, my size and everything in me that wasn't perfect.

I blamed my height. I blamed my weight. I blamed my features. I blamed my capability. I blamed my age.

I just blamed myself for not looking good, and for not trying to look better when I was with you... Because the third party is a 21-year-old tall, lanky, big-eyed, sweet-looking and somewhat pretty and fair-skinned girl. Someone, who, in your eyes, would be considered as elegant.

So I blamed myself for not trying to look good nor elegant. For allowing myself to be fat and round...

Then I decided...

 THIS THINKING HAS TO STOP.

Because deep down inside, I know I am not ugly. I may not be beautiful, but I know that I have such unique pair of eyes that a lot of people are envious of. They may not be huge and round, nor do they sparkle, but they smile.

Yes, I can do "eyesmile".

And I thought,

"Hey, if this person doesn't love me for who I am and doesn't appreciate my unique features, then so be it. Because having a pair of "sepet" eyes have always been my pride. It has always been how people remember me and how I present myself to people. So what if I don't meet the typical criteria of a pretty lass? I am me. And a man who loves me should love me, for me. Not for how I look."

I no longer feel ugly nor small inside. Because I am not typical.

I am unique.

And unique people ALWAYS leave lasting impression.